New Beginnings

Well, it has been almost a year since my last post.  For those of you who have been following me, sorry about that.  But this life is a journey and I can say, with absolute certainty that I have been on a journey.  I have been taking time to learn about me.
To learn what I love and don’t love.  Both in myself and in what others perceive in me.  learning about unbelievability, manipulation and self awareness.   I have had many people help me thru all of these wonderful perceptions.  I have seen in those closest to me things that I do not want in my life and am making changes.  The weird thing is, as I begin to like myself more and become more confident in my own self, many of those who were close to me fight back.  They do not like the new me.  They do not like the new patterns that I am going into.   They are used to the old patterns.  That’s what they want me to be.  It makes them more comfortable.  But I am here to be me.  To make my life happy.  To be my own person.  Not others versions of myself.  So I put my claim in.  I am here, to start over, to begin anew,  to continue to learn about myself, about my spirituality, my intuition, my oneness with myself.   To accept me as i am and not worry about what others think.  Honestly, that is a hard one for me.  I have lived my whole life with the worry of what others think of me.  What my Parents, my siblings, my friends think, so this will probably be something i continually come back to.  Self acceptance and Letting go.  A continual New Beginning.  Everyday I learn something new about me.  Everyday is a new adventure.  Some are filled with more adventure than others.  Some are so invigorating that I literally buzz throughout the entire day.  And how completely perfect is that.  Each day, a new beginning.  I will attempt to keep you all posted on my travels through this thing we call life.  Some days will be filled with Spiritual things, other with selfish things.  Some days will be filled with introspection and venting, but that is how I choose to live my life.  Trial and Error.  Then Acceptance and Letting go.  Thank you all for being here and traveling this journey with me.  I love you all.