You know, that belly laugh moment. The ones that make you wish you had worked out your abs more? The ones that made you pee in your pants just a little. The ones that remain as very fond memories even if the people associated with them are no longer in your circle? Those ones that as something comes up, a smile crosses your face and you begin to grin like a fool? I have had some of those great moments. Like the one where, (coming from a clean room environment for work, the suits you wear are called bunny suits), and when explaining to a friend about a horrific hit and run accident that involved lots of carnage and they were out there in bunny suits and everything….yes, she thought actual bunny suits!! OMG..laughed so hard. We had just gotten ice cream and the ice cream became a shake we laughed so hard and so long. Now, don’t judge. It was horrific…someone died. But the thought of someone in bunny ears and tails out cleaning up everything made us laugh. HARD!! It’s those moments that I cherish. Those moments that I absolutely adore. It is also those moments that make me tear up. That make me question everything I ever did in my life. Why? Because many of the people in those amazing moments are no longer part of my journey. However, they were crucial to it. Do I miss them? Heck yes. But, if they were still in my journey, would I still be on this amazing journey? I look at all of the people who are no longer with me. High School/middle school/grade school friends, family members, volunteer friends, work friends, all of them. People are meant to come into my life and out of my life. They are meant to be guides, angels, and teachers. I love that about all of those friends. They all gave me gifts. And as the great Sheli G said to me numerous times, the gift is the gift..its up to you to do something with it. Yea. I just didn’t understand what the gifts were. Sometimes, I had to take a look back on my life and the friends in it and say, wow, Friend A taught me so much. I had no idea. I am proud of the person I have become and of the person that I am becoming. Do I regret some of the things that I have done and said? Yep! But again, Lessons. Lessons and Belly laughs. They go hand in hand for me. They are the best teachers. Learning about this crazy gift of intuition is a happy challenge. Some days are harder than others. Some days are more fun than others. Some days are filled with those fond memories and Belly laughs. I love everything about all of it. I’m growing, learning, evolving and loving my beautiful self, more every single day. I’m becoming me. I’m becoming the light. Hell no!! I am the light!! I thank all of those beautiful friends who I have gone thru so much with. You have all given me so much and I am grateful for each and every day. My hope is that I can be of service to those that need me. And maybe a good silly Belly Laugh or two.
